It's not my story to tell.. So I wont.

I've typed out an opening sentence countless times for this one. It's not coming to me like it usually does. I've been hesitant to even write. I bet some of you are expecting a story of why my brother ended up in the hospital. The back story, the update, the dirty details. It's not my story to tell, so I wont. I will however tell you that he is going to recover with no major injuries and he's still my stupid younger brother. I'm going to talk about sinking ships in this post. Toxic people and toxic situations.

If you know about what happened, you know the history, You'll know this applies to it. If not, I'm sure it applies to someone you know. I have spent the last 24 hours trying to make sense of how people end up where they do in life. How do they end up in a downward spiral? I have asked myself how do I help him, how do I make him see the toxic situation, the toxic people making it worse. How do I fix it? I was brought to tears thinking this over. How did my little brother end up where he did? I realized that I can cry all I want. It wont do any good. The answer to all my questions were, 'You cant help a person who won't help themselves'.

If you're bailing a sinking ships out and someone is drilling more holes, it's useless. The boat is going to sink anyways, they're going down and so are you. Of course, I could use many examples but you get what I'm trying to say. If someone doesn't want the help, you can't help them. You'll only bring yourself down. Do I want to watch my brother hit bottom? No, Of course not. I want more than anything to shake him, make him realize that it's not worth it. I can't. I've tried. All I can do is watch helpless as he spirals down because of toxic people and situations. I have no choice because I'll worry myself sick if not.

Sometimes, they don't need us to fix it. They need us to let them making mistakes. Let them fail and figure it out. What I can do? Remind him that I'll love him no matter what. That when it does hit bottom, I'll be there. As I always am.