It's little things we get from our parents.

Some of you may of read my post about biting off more than I can chew, and how I was going to stop taking classes because it was the 'best choice' right now. I have sense put more thought into it and am not going to stop my desire for education. To help make college easier. I will make it work. I will find the way because I am determined. I want this for my children to have a mother who they look up to, I want it for a better career but most importantly, for myself. I've wanted this long before I had kids. It was my first child that put the 'stop' to the path. Now that I'm done with kids, I can focus on the best future for them. But, this isn't about school. This is about how indecisive I am.

Anyone who really spends time with me, knows I can never make up my mind. I am one of the most indecisive people I know. It's a horrible 'flaw'. I think, rethink and rethink again. I'll give my husband 2 options and we will settle on one. An hour later, I've come up with 4 more and have a better idea. Sometimes, I even get angry when he tells me 'we already decided'. Yes, we have. BUT, My indecisive brain has decided that we can choose from MORE or that another option is even better. Most generally, I end up back at the first one anyways. I sometimes wonder where I get it from. Then I watch my father do the same thing! He's the second most indecisive person I know.

As I get older, I am realizing the small things that I have developed from my parents. The 'quirks' they've passed down to me. More and more, I start to think my personality is my dads. I have my mother in me, but I am Harland Nevells Jr through and through. It's not just the indecisive piece. I've noticed on his counter every visit I have that he's a list maker. Everything is a list. That is how I am too. I can not function without a list! Several list. Some of them being the same thing but written different. Another quirk that I have somehow had handed down from my father.

I'm also like my mother though, I have her lack of 'tone', so when I'm joking, people take me seriously. I have her blank face that makes everyone think we're anti social and hate those around us. I also notice that I have her big heart and lack of saying no. She goes out of her way to help people and make things happen for those that are in need, I've tended to realize that I'm doing that as I get older. Having kids of my own, I realize their 'quirks' that are like me already as well. Noah my two year old, he has the 'pest' side of me. He will randomly lick a person or start picking someones blemishes. This is a bad habit of mine, he's picked it up from me. Bentley is a control freak, very organized with the things he does. Not everything but the little stuff in day to day life.

It makes me feel closer to my kids and my parents as I realize how similar we are. Even though it drives me nuts when someone says 'you're like your mother', it gives me a sense of pride. I am filled with joy when my husband looks at our children and tell them that they're like me. Embrace the quirks you inherit from your parents, and the ones you give your kids :)